From the Abundance

  For the past few night's I've found myself wide awake in the wee hours of the morning.  I'm not talking that, wake up to go to the restroom and pass back out awake.  I mean the bright eyed, bushy tailed, can't get comfortable, not even yawning type of awake.  I haven't quite figured out what it is that God is trying to get from me or to me but I'm available.  I have spent these nights in worship and meditation.  I don't know about you;  but I discovered that there's something special about seeking God early in the morning (aka late at night).  I used to struggle, I MEAN REALLY STRUGGLE, with 5am prayer.  I would always want to go then I would calculate... "ok i have to be there at 5, which means I would have to get up by at least 4 to shower and be dressed, then it'll be over around 6:30-7.. what am I going to do for two hours before school starts? I can't go back home and go to sleep, I can't go to anybody's  house

It's been a while since I've been able to sit up and keep my foot down long enough to write anything more than a few sentences but today I'm pressing through.  A few weeks ago I was involved in a car accident that resulted in the need for the cast you see on the left.  For those who know me personally, this little monkey is a sticker that pops up a lot in our Facebook conversations.  A friend posted that this was a very fitting picture for me and I agree, but let me tell you why.  One of the hardest things for me to do is sit still and do nothing.  The second hardest is probably to receive.  I don't mean gifts on birthdays or anything like that, but to genuinely receive from others.  I'm so used to doing things for myself and by myself that it's often a last resort for me to ask for help.  Oh does God know how to show you some things in the midst of a situation! For the past two weeks (and still) I haven't been able to put any weight or pres